so i hate online journals......but it think ill keep this one updated for now.

i had to go to the emergancy room last night cuz i was in a lot of pain.

im not the healthiest person, i get sick with coughs and colds very easily, but this was something i had never experienced before!

it was wednesday morning around 10:36 or so when i woke up.
i woke up with this sharp pain on my right upper thigh. i had my friend look at it cuz i had stayed the night with them. he said it was i mosquito bite but this was the first time for me that a mosquito bite hurt like this. it felt like some one hit the bone closest to it with a hammer, the skin and muscles didnt hurt at all just the area surrounding the bone.

i ignored it for awhile cuz my friend was getting paid that day and he would buy my some cream for it. and it drastically went down and stopped hurtting. but my back started hurtting and it was getting worse as went about our day.

finally we stopped at his house to pick up his brothers to take with us to the mall. he had gotten them lunch so while they ate i laid down on his bed hoping that would help my back. it didnt.

the pain intensified and started to spread down my entire left leg, and down my upper right thigh and my right knee.
i tried to ignore it cuz its not the first time i was in pain, but it was the first time that all these places hurt all at once and like this.

the pain felt like just before like someone was taking my bones and twisting and shredding them only i know it wasnt the bone but more like the areas around the bone like before.

we went to the next town to get lunch. i told me friend and he said "maybe its because you havent eaten. u didnt eat a whole lot yesterday and u havent eaten at all today" and i thought this was a reasonable thing cuz my body is that way when i havent eaten in awhile

when we got to the restraunt and got our food i was still in a lot of pain, i eat slowly so i wouldnt make myself sick. but it was hard to eat i was in so much pain. finnally his brother had enough of me grunting and moaning and wincing in pain and said "we need to take her to the hospital now, im getting sick of her doing that." so we ended our lunch early and my friend took me to the closest hospital which was litterally down a couple of blocks from where we were

i went up to the admittance nurse lady and said i was in pain and needed to be checked out. she asked "what kind of pain? adominal?" i said every where lucky my friend was there and with me or else they would be checking other things cuz they were stupid there

the nurse the admittance lady called kept saying i had adominal pain after we told them twice it was my legs, back, and chest. they got my name wrong and my date of birth wrong. how hard is it to understand MARCH 23 1990? not may they sound nothing alike and they only used the first letter of my name not my whole name, i bunch of retards was running this hospital!!

but finally they were getting it right, they took my blood, a urine sample, an ekg of my heart, and x-rayed my chest. everything came back normal, they couldnt figure out what was wrong with me.

while i was waiting for the doctor to come back to prescribe me medicine i started screaming and crying out in pain, i couldnt take it anymore. it hurt sooo much i couldnt stand it. i kept saying "i cant take anymore" i kept asking my friend to get me out of here. i hate hospitals.

the retard nurse that got my name and birthday wrong came in and said "you need to be quiet!" my thoughts were: some hospital! they're telling a patient in emense pain to shut up?! its there job to fix it! what the heck?

she came back in and said she was going to give me benydril(sp?) and something else that starts with an "a" and has a "d" in it i cant remember what it is anymore. i hate medicine and dont like to take it unless i know what exactly it does, so i asked her
"the "ad" medicine will help you relax and the benydril will cancel out any side effects the "ad" might have."
"what does the "ad" relax exactly?"
"i dont know what it relaxes exactly just that it relaxes you." she saying this as she injecting it into me!! what the f#$%!!!!
when she left the room i turned to my friend and asked "what did she do to me?!"

but it did its trick. i started to get sleepy. the pain was there but i was too tired to cry out anymore and when i did it was just the grunts and moans again.

they came back with my presciption and told me to get it at the walmart down the block. so my friend drove and got it. i was still on the "ad" medicine and slightly hillucinating sort of.
i was in a wheel chair cuz i couldnt walk, so when ever we physically stopped my head kept going (i wasnt physically moving my head more like a light-headed feeling of leaning over) and when i closed my eyes i could hear all the sounds around me but my mental image of everything started to distort, but only when my were closed. when they were open my dream version of the world seemed more real than the real.

when i got the medicine and took it, it dulled the pain but it wasnt gone, and its still not gone, my knees hurt still, but not as bad.
and my chest feels sore, prolly from my screaming and crying.

some one from the walmart suggested i might have fibromyalgia and i looked it up and i have a lot of things in common with it, so when i go to my family doctor im going to ask to get tested for it. i just want to know what it is thats causing this pain and i hope its not something new, i hope it has a name and a treatment or cure. i dont like it one bit. if anyone has any other suggestions as to what it might be, im all ears!!

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